No words can say...

My sweet Jenny,
Today would have been your 28th birthday! I wish so badly that I could hold you just one more time, sister. This month has also marked 2 years since you passed away! I miss you more than I could ever say! Our family is just not complete without you! Don't worry though mom and dad are doing great. Mom really misses you and we cry together often when we think and talk about you. Dad misses you too, but you know dad, he keeps it all inside. Brittney and Jordan are doing great and Chayse and McKay are getting so big! They know exactly who you are and know that you were their special aunt that got to go live with Jesus. McKay still asks if you are ever going to leave heaven to come visit us.
I think you'd be proud of me, A lot has happened in my life since you passed away. I graduated college and I am heading back in August for my master's degree (I remember telling you that I'd get there someday). I am also getting married in the temple to the best man in the world, I wish he could have met you! You would love him, I can't wait for you to meet him one day! You'd be happy to know I've become stronger and more patient in the past two years too! I also just want to thank you for being my sister, you have made a bigger impact on my life than anyone I have ever met. I am who I am because of you! I think of you and miss you everyday and can't wait until we meet again! Until then we both have a lot of work to do! I love you so much and miss you so much! Happy Birthday Jenny!!!! I love you more than words can say!
Love,
Your baby sister

Jac's awesome Pictures!

Ok, well its been a while since I actually sat down and blogged. Its a little late, but Zach made Valentines day the best! He made me a surprise candle light dinner and gave me the sweetest card and a gift to the spa! Then we played games with our friend Garrett and Stacy! It was a fun night! Also yesterday Jacquelyn (who many of you know is one of my best friends...and Zach's cousin...she set us up) took pictures of us. We are getting them done professionally, but Jac has always loved taking pictures and is really good at it so we were excited to get some taken in the winter. They turned out so good! She really is so good at it, she should take it up as a career! Thanks so much Jac, we love you so much!

Here are some pictures (sorry there are a ton because I have so many favorites)...these are only a few of the over 500 pictures she took! Almost all of them turned out so cute!

Wow...I am so sorry there are so many pictures...I even took like 10 of them off! This is one of my favorites. Any of you who know my mom would appreciate this. My mom came with us to help Jac with the shadows and lighting. Well Jac told us to look at my mom...my mom immediately started shaking her butt...and this picture is our reaction! I think it is so funny!
I look so annoyed and I remember thinking...oh my, she's crazy! Zach still gets shocked by how crazy my family can be...can you tell? Well, sorry there are so many! But for the first time in my whole life I actually like pictures that were taken of me! I just like them because in every picture I just look so happy! Zach is amazing and I am so blessed to have him. I don't know what I would do without him!!! I love you babe! Thanks again Jac for the amazing pictures, you are for sure our favorite cousin now (don't tell Jordan or Jenny)!

It is official...CANCUN

It is finally not just plans anymore, but it is official. The day after we get married....

We...

Are going to Cancun for our honeymoon...
And staying in this luxurious Resort...
I am so excited I can't even stand it..

Things not to do...

I saw this on 2 of my friends blogs and I am stealing it! I think it is perfect for me. I am a list maker and I am the crazy type who will write something on my list just to check it off. I always make a list of what I want/need to do. I never write down the stuff that I don't want to do, the stupid things that I take way more seriously than I should...so it it is!

1. I am not going to stress out about this wedding anymore, its suppose to be fun right!!!
2. I am not going to worry so much about what other people think of how I look, how I am doing my job, how I do my hair/makeup...who am I trying to impress anyway.
3. I am going to try not to drink Diet Coke...ok, who am I kidding, I'll only drink it when I get stressed out (see item #1)!
4. I am not going to eat a whole bag of peanut M&M's at a time, a few hand fulls should do.
5. I am not going to sleep in anymore, I need to start being more routine about working out before work!
6. I am not going to think about out plans to honeymoon to Cancun anymore because it is making it hard to work and go on with real life.
7. I am not going to complain about going back to school in the fall, its an opportunity and although its not going to be fun I am so excited to fulfill my dreams and get the job I really want!
8. I am not going to say no anymore to my niece and nephew when they ask for treats and soda, come on I am the Aunt, I can give them all the junk in the world!
9. I am not going to shop as much as I used to, I need to save money because I am going to be quiting my job in fall and it'll be up to Zach to support us (see #7)
10. I am not going wish that time would go faster, I am going to enjoy being engaged and living at my parents house for free!
11. I am not going to worry about my stupid toes and the fact that I have not had a pedicure in months!
12. I am not going to stop watching the Bachelor...it is a guilty pleasure of mine and I am ok with that!

Well there are a lot more that I should not do...but, this list should do for now! I should probably get back to work!